My father was wearing the glasses but in prison, he fixed his glassed with a waistband, I asked him why?
When he answered my tears were wailing in my eyes. He said he didn’t want to break his glasses when the prison guards thrash and tortured him.
I’m 32 and joined the PMOI to achieve freedom for my country where I’ve never seen anything except tyranny. I wasn’t unfamiliar with my people’s suffering because I have had an experience since I was a child.
Thinking of one’s family makes you full of emotions and feelings, and you are always worried about losing them. We love them and we are ready to sacrifice everything in life for them so that we don’t see even a little bit of concern in their eyes. This is true about me and it is not an exception but life has been different for me than the others.
When I was little I always had this question on mind that why my father wasn’t around us like other fathers but I was just a child and I didn’t understand such cases. Visiting him only twice in a month or sometimes even once a month, behind the glassy window wasn’t understandable for me at that age, but I somehow knew it would never change. When I was at first grade and my father was released from prison it wasn’t understandable. I thought that he had to be behind bars forever. This was the crime committed against me and the other children who were in the same situation as me at that time.
When I had an experience of hugging my father, without stress and the shouting of the prison guards saying time is over! I promised God that I would never let my father separate from us. Every time I thought of death, I always wanted to be the first to die because I felt I couldn’t tolerate to see any of my family members’ death. I didn’t want to see them sad even though I imagined I wouldn’t see them anymore.
I always talked to my father about all the years he was suffering and under torture as a political prisoner.I asked all the questions which had been formed in my mind since I was a kid. I heard his answers and I was proud of having such a valiant father.
I suffered from imagine he had kidney imperfection because of the torture and too much lashes.
All the memories of prison and resistances he explained me, gave me motivation and faith in a way he put steps in but I always petrified if an uprising form in Iran of whether the Iranian regime feel any dangerous, they arrest all of my family and we will be executed because they never stop their threat and pressure on our family during the years after my father was released from the prison. I remember when I wanted to come and visit some friends in Ashraf; they threatened my father to death. They called me many times to make me scared of capture. I was being chased for a month anywhere I went. There wasn’t any security. This wasn’t only related to me; I was concerned more about my father, my mother and my only brother. Ultimately I left Iran to come to Ashraf with my father’s inspiration .if I stayed; there was a possibility to arrest for me.
I was graduated in 2 majors in university (nursing and microbiology) but I knew that none of them could guarantee my life and my future in Iran where its leaders are mullahs and fundamentalists.
I made my decision and went to Ashraf to visit the women and men who I had heard about in my life. I knew this was the way I was seeking. It was a hard choice, I had to leave my family, and on the other hand I knew they would be under the pressure of Iranian MOIS agents. It had only past 6 months since I came to Iraq that I heard about my father’s arrest. They brutally arrested him from his office and took to our home. They made too much mess at our home in order to find something related to the PMOI. They threatened my mother and brother with being jailed; finally they took my father to an unknown place. My family didn’t know anything about my father’s place for a couple of days till we found out he was in Evin prison. In the illegitimate 2 minutes court, He was condemned to the 10 year prison because of his daughter’s presence in Ashraf.
He wasn’t unacquainted with this condition. He was in prison as a political prisoner from 1982 to 1989. He spent most of the best days of his youth in prison, under the torture. I knew that such pressure wasn’t strange for him but when I thought of his age, I would be really worried about his health. The MOIS agents wanted him to interview and admit that his daughter was kept against her will in Ashraf by the PMOI. They wanted to take advantage of it against me and PMOI. When they saw my father’s resistance and not cooperating, they arrested my mother and kept her in a solitary confinement for 4 months. They wanted to put pressure on my father to make to surrender and repent but they failed.
Thinking of the years he had to spend in prison, 10 years past he would be 63 so at least I had the optimism to meet him again. All the hope was nothing but mirage when I heard the news of his cancer.
After a year we found out he was suffering from the pancreas cancer. He went to the prison clinic because of the severe pain in his stomach but they refused to give him even a painkiller. He lost 20 kilograms in 2 months so he weakened, even he couldn’t do his daily work. When I called my mother, she was in the dreadful condition because she was trying to conceal this issue from me and didn’t want to tell me my father was in a high risk situation! She told me the prison chief and Iranian MOIS agents didn’t accept for my father’s off time to start his treatment despite of my mother’s insistence.
The doctor told my mother if my father was not allowed to undergo chemotherapy treatment, he would enter in a dangerous stage of disease. This news made me more anxiety about missing him. The National Council of Resistance of Iran (NCRI) took a stance about the situation of my father, Mohsen Dogmehchi. The Amnesty International (AI) announced concerns over my father’s impending death.
When my mother and brother went to visit him in prison, they saw my father on a wheelchair because he couldn’t walk and his body was being weaken day after the day. The MOIS agents told him if you interview, not only we give you permission for your medical treatment; we would also release you from prison. But my father never gave up his honor and did not kowtow to the Iranian regime’s agents.
The regime’s prosecutor attorney, Jafari Dolat Abadi told one of the prisoners who protest to my father’s situation: we are not supposed to execute all of the PMOI families we arrested; we make some of them torment to death in prison. They used this ploy to kill my father. His cancer was progressed even the doctors had no hope. He didn’t take chemotherapy during the 7 months suffering. They were forced to transfer him to the hospital in his last week but he was lying on the bed surrounded by revolutionary guards.
He suffered from severe pain for 7 months, day and night! The doctor said to my mother he was fighting to such a horrible pain which is intolerable. He couldn’t drink water in his last month.
This conspiracy continued till my dear father lost his life on March 29th 2011. In The last image I saw, he was so weak because of the pain and also the last video taken in prison 20 days before he died, is so painful for me.
This is the reality I have to accept. I’m not able to see his face and talk to him to tell him how much I love him and how much I am proud of him, is the worst fact. I remember his advice: the struggle against such an inhuman regime is a serious struggle, believe on their faiths and continue their way with no doubt. His voice in the last video has an important message for me… the message of resistance to the end….
The Iranian regime has tried to eliminate PMOI several times but they couldn’t. All their tactics have failed so they have no way to put pressure on the PMOI.
Some people may have this question that who are those people who come in front of the gates of the camp Liberty in Iraq in the name of PMOI family?
They are the ones who were threatening us for 2 years with 320 loudspeakers shouting they want to kill and execute us and hang from the electricity poles.
They shouted that they wanted to burn us and cut us into pieces. They paved the way of 2 attacks and bloodbath in Ashraf.
Why they threatened us to death and massacre?
Now this conspiracy named so called PMOI family are forming behind Liberty gates. They claim they’re our families; this is while our real family has no permission to come out of Iran to visit us and if they have any contact with us, they will be dealt with severely.
What was my father’s guilt who was sentenced to 10 year prisons and exile, even he wasn’t given allowed to undergo chemotherapy? He was forced to torment to death…
His guilt was my presence in Ashraf. This is the most important red line for the Iranian regime… if our families have no destiny in Iran except execution and torture, why some families are able to come in front of Camp Liberty???
They all have been hired by the Iranian regime to start new conspiracy as the same as they did for three years in Ashraf.
This is a contradictory feeling for these two families.
Can we name the ones who come by the Iranian regime’s order behind the gates of Liberty as our family? Or we have to do something to overcome such conspiracies. International community in Iraq has to hold up to its commitment towards residents in Camp Liberty.
*About the author: Narges Dogmehchi, was graduated in nursing and microbiology. She has joined the PMOI to achieve freedom for her country Iran.